One

I dont want to be one, I just want to be the one.

Too much fun

Deer season starts this weekend. Hubby is out of town. I just got an email from a group of friends here at work, they are all planning on going out Saturday night for one of the girl's birthday. Wow, the movie this past weekend and going out Saturday night this coming weekend, I better slow down, I might start having too much fun! lol They said there was a big dance floor. I dont normally dance, but I might just have to say "wtf" and go for it. Guess I better start trying to find a babysitter or better yet, a friend for her to spend the night with, then it wont matter what time I get home. Crap! I just remembered I am supposed to keep the nursery Sunday at church too. lol I may have to cancel on that this time.

My Laugh

I was just told I sound like Betty Rubble from The Flintstones movie. I am not sure how to take that. To make matters worse, Rosie O'Donnell played that character and I cant stand her! The thing is, this is the second time she has told me this!

At the Movies

I went to the movies this weekend. We saw The Departed. Personally I didnt think there was near enough blood and brains being blown out of the back of people's heads and fuck was just not said enough! (JUST KIDDING) The actors was great and it was suspenseful, but it was long, two and a half hours. And I must say that I am not a big Leonardo DiCaprio fan. But I have to say that he looked DAMN GOOD in this movie!

Yummy!

Hi, my name is Kris and I am a BB&W addict.

First, I got this one.
Then I went back for this one.
Yesterday I got this one and this one.

Monday

Rollercoaster.

Dr Phil quiz

"Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who’s extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken."

Working Late

I havent felt like posting today or yesterday. I dont have anything to say. Seems that someone or something has stolen my inspiration and creativity. I hope they come back soon.

Its past 5:30pm and I am still at work. This is unusual for me. Other employees keep passing by my office and saying things like, "Do you know what time it is?" or "What are YOU still doing here?" HAHA Smartasses. You arent funny. I have to stay late to make up some time. I have to stop taking such long lunch hour(s), literally. I cant help it. One hour is just not enough time to do all the things that I want to do.

This time change had me really screwed up earlier in the week. I was going to bed at 8:30pm and waking up at 1:30am. Not that that is usually the time I get up, but for some reason I could not go back to sleep. I hate that. Then of course about the time I do get settled back down, it is time to wake up. Well last night I didnt have that problem. I slept through the whole night. I pray I do again tonight.

Last night was Halloween. My daughter went out with some friends to one of the friend's neighborhoods. The friend's mom took them. I figure this will be the last year that my daughter "trick or treats". She was Raggedy Ann this year. Seems like yesterday when I was drawing a black nose and whiskers on her so she could be a kitty cat. She was a Dallas Cowboy cheerleader one year. And NO, I am not a Cowboy akd Crybaby fan, but that was all we could find.

I stayed at home last night and handed out candy. I was very disappointed in the costumes. Well maybe costumes is not the right word, maybe it would be better described as the "lack" of costumes. There were kids that werent even dressed up! Joie, I will take pictures tomorrow of my "Halloween rubbish bags" and post them for you. I know you wont be able to contain your excitement!

Look at what Adam gave out to his Trick or Treaters. lol

Edited: Still at work @ 6:30. I just hung up the phone. ;-) I said something and one of the guys I work with said, "Kris?!? Are you still here?!?!" I laughed and told him no, that it was just a figment of his imagination. He laughed and said, "Awww, sarcasm huh?" I laughed and said "From ME?" HA! Off to the grocery store to pick up a few things and then home to eat and watch "Dancing With the Stars". Shamefully I admit that I watch that. lol

OG, I added the World Clock to the sidebar.

Green

"Yet he was jealous, though he did not show it,
For jealousy dislikes the world to know it"

~ Lord Byron

Heart Pounding

I had to go to hell aka Walmart Friday night. I was out of dry cat food, and if any of you have cats, then you know they will NOT go ignored if there is no food. It doesnt matter if they are hungry or not. It is the mere fact that they have the authority to demand that food be put there. Ok, so anyway. I was walking across the parking and guess who I spotted. Remember "him"? I dont think my heart has ever beat so fast! I was literally scared. Thank goodness I was not all dressed up in work clothes this time, I had on jeans and tshirt. He was standing there making a scene yelling at his daughter. I was unsure if he was leaving or coming in. As I entered the foyer area of the store, I went back around and peeked out a side door. He was leaving. Thankfully! My heart was still pounding out of my chest. At least I know what he drives now. I dont think I will go to that hell aka Walmart again.

Blah, blah, blah

Home all Friday night, no kid, no action.
Home all last Sunday, 3-10pm, no kid, no action.
I give up.

Before I go to bed I do a Suduko puzzle lying in bed.
(Sidenote to Woodrow: If you are reading this, I know you think these puzzles are lame. Sorry. I hang my head in shame. I didnt have enough nerve to admit to doing them when you posted about them on your blog.)
The other day a girl at work was doing one and I commented that she was doing it in PEN. She said, and I quote, "Yeah, only punks do them in pencil."
(I use pencil.)

I raked my driveway full of obnoxious pineneedles again today. I bought some trashbags that look like jack o'lanterns, so when I stuffed them, I placed them around my yard for decorations. They look really cute. And I have a scarecrow flag. I am hoping to get a pumkin and a bale of hay to put out. I might take some pics and post them.

Cleans sheets are waiting to be put on the bed.
Good night.

Raw and Uncut

I have the house to myself ALL day!!! I am soooo excited!

Well. I was. Seriously, I had this post all planned out in my head. I was going to talk about all the things I was going to do today. As I sat down to write this, I started playing "Broken". Now I am a little sad.

I love this song. Still.

"Im begging you please girl, Im sorry I let you down..."

I wanna dance. Slow.

"your breath is so sweet, your kisses could get me high..."

I need to be held. Tight.

"Im broken like a promise, shattered like a dream..."

I haven’t thought about that in a long time.

"Girl what about you? What about you girl?"

Too Much Time

[1] What is your middle name? An old family name, it was my great-grandmother’s maiden name
[2] What color is your mailbox? Black
[3] Are you available? Why? Are you asking me out?
[4] Have you ever hit a deer? No
[5] Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home? No
[6] Do you get the paper delivered to your house in the morning? Only Sundays.
[7] Who checks the mail in your house? Whoever gets home first.
[8] Do you have a small driveway? Yes
[9] Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you? No, it is a factory setting, nothing cool.
[10] What do you do first in the morning? Go to the bathroom.
[11] What brand is your printer? Hewlett Packard
[12] Do you enjoy fighting with people? No, I avoid confrontation.
[13] Is your hair naturally straight or curly? Straight, but only because it is so short, but it is very thick and has a lot of ‘body’, there is some curl mixed in, my dad has naturally curly hair.
[14] Who was your kindergarten teacher? Mrs. Bass
[15] Are you taller than your mother? No…but my daughter it already taller than me!
[16] Do you have a favorite word? Yes, "Why?"
[18] Are you God? Is this a typo? I don’t like this question!
[19] What do you do to get over a broken heart? Cry
[20] Do you have a deep dark secret? Yes
[21] Do you enjoy writing in colored pens? No.
[22] Does anything hurt on your body right now? My throat
[23] Do you often cry during a movie? Yes, sad or happy.
[24] Do you hate your life? No!
[25] Do you get mad easily? Yes. I have a smart mouth and short temper. I have been told it is not ‘what’ I say, but ‘how’ I say it. I raise my voice a lot.
[26] What is your biggest pet peeve? double standards.
[29] What is your away message? home, work or cell? lol
[30] Do any of your friends have kids? Yes. Most do.
[32] Who should pay on the first date? Whoever asked.
[33] How many years older than you are you willing to date? I don’t have an age "limit" set in my mind.
[34] Do you have any friends? Of course
[35] Do you have any mean friends? Not that I am aware of, maybe I am the mean one?
[36] What is the ugliest color in your opinion? burnt orange
[37] Have you ever liked someone who all your friends couldn't stand? Not that I know of
[38] Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff? Yes
[40] Do you itch your ears? Yes
[42] What brand are the pant/jeans you're wearing right now? Hanes sweatpants
[43] How tall are you? 5’3"
[44] What is the closest green object? the stool I have my feet on
[45] What is on your feet? New Balance slip on sneakers
[46] Do you like watermelon? Yes!
[48] Do you want to have kids? If I have one, is it too late to say no? lol
[49] What is the brightest color you're wearing? Pale pink thsirt
[50] Who is the friend you have that you would never have expected to have gotten to know? all of my blogger friends!
[52] What's your mothers middle name? Ann
[53] Stupidest movie you ever saw? I am bad with movies, I cant remember any good or bad.
[55] Do you like your dad? Yes
[56] Do you have any TV shows on DVD? Miami Vice. I want Grey’s Anatomy for Christmas.
[57] Are you wearing makeup? No, actually just took a shower.
[58] Do you have a tattoo? No.
[61] Do you know how to draw? No.
[63] Who is your hero? My mom. My mom has lupus and is pain a lot. But I never hear her complain. Instead I complain to her and I feel like a bad daughter. She put up with my dad for many years for us kids and I admire her for finally standing up to him, with my help, and finding a life that she is happy with now.
[64] Who did you last IM? CK
[65] Do you work a lot of hours? 40/week
[66] What do you do when you are stressed out? Sleep
[67] Who was the last person to call you? Hubby
[68] Is there anything you regret? Yes, dont we all?
[69] Do you know where your family name originated from? Germany.
[70] Is there an animal that creeps you out? Snakes.
[71] What was the last thing you did for fun? Shopping.
[72] Last time you cried? A week or two ago. I get teary-eyed a lot.

I got this from Joie and I agree with her, what is up with these numbers?? I didnt skip any, that is just how whacked up they were!

Deer / Dear Season

A national holiday is soon approaching us here in the Southern parts of the US. I have already started seeing signs. It is known as deer season. Men are preparing for weeks of vacation time. Some schools even let out for a day so that the younger males can accompany the older, more learned tribal leaders, into the woods to learn the customs and rituals known as “Deer Camp.” I have noticed four wheelers in the back of almost every red-blooded male’s truck. A friend of mine called me the other day to tell me about his new four-wheeler and even later emailed me pictures. The machinery is treated like a new member of the family. Of course when the men head off to the deer woods, we women all flock to the malls to spend their money! Or there are some men that don’t deer hunt, but they do 'dear' hunt while the other husbands and boyfriends are away. ;-) lol

Today

Cutting up and Laughing
It’s a rainy, dreary day. We are slow at work. We were just all laughing and cutting up. I looked up and one of the guys was smiling and staring at me. I think I blushed. "S" ("Too Much" post on 10/19) used to look at me like that. I would be cutting up, laughing and he would email me a :) . I love it when you catch a guy looking at you. Probably didnt mean a thing, but it sure can boost the ego! lol

That'll Teach Me!
Did anyone happen to get the license plate number of that bus? Man! I feel like I have just been flat smooth ran over! I was making fun of a friend yesterday because he was telling me how his family had been and is sick with colds. I laughed and told him that he was going to be next.

Well Karma heard me, because she smacked me upset the head. I am getting sick now. I was in bed by 8pm and asleep by 8:01pm last night. Whoever is standing on my back, please remove your foot. My lower back is killing me.

Thank goodness game #4 of the World Series was rained out or I would have missed seeing the Cardinals whoop up on the Tigers. This time of year kind of makes me sad, baseball will soon be over and then football season wont be far behind. I love baseball and football and when they aren’t on the weekends, there is nothing to watch. I was telling a friend of mine this yesterday and he said that basketball season would be starting soon. Yeah? So what? That is why I get even sadder. I hate basketball!

Two months...

...from today is Christmas!!!

Yep. Only two months.

How many shopping days is that?

More importantly, how many PAYCHECKS is that?!?!

I can’t believe it. Has anyone started their shopping or even have any ideas about what they are going to purchase? I am having a hard time with my daughter. Preteen is a tough age. They don’t want the cheap stuff anymore and I am not talking about cheap made, I am talking about cheap cost! Her list consists of an iPod w/ case, a tv/dvd player for her room and Ugg boots. Hey! Those boots are from Australia. www.uggaustralia.com Joe? Can you get me a deal? Lol Just kidding. Even it was cheaper to buy them there directly, I am sure the cost would come at shipping them to me in the States huh? What happened to the days of buying her a Barbie and some dollar store makeup and that being good?

I always have to make a list of what it is that I am wanting / needing for Christmas so that my hubby and daughter can run out the week before and try and scrounge it up. That is why I have learned if there is something that I really want, I might as well just buy it for myself.

I am a very practical person. I bet you couldn’t have guess that huh? Lol Yeah, whatever. :-P I would MUCH rather get someone something that they needed for Christmas than just blowing my money on something just in order to ‘say’ I gave them a gift. Do you know what my favorite gift for Christmas was? It was over 10 years ago. My dad had just got remarried, my grandparents (his parents) had both been very ill and in the hospital, my grandfather had just passed just a few months prior and my dad was with out a job. My dad is an only child, so he had had to quit his job in order to care for my grandparents. Needless to say, money was tight, which is usual for any working family, but much more so that year it seemed.

I can remember we all met at my sister’s for a family get-together. My family is a “mixed” family due to divorces and remarriages. If you have never experienced a holiday with a family like that, you are lucky. Then add my husband’s mixed family and we have “family” Christmases every weekend of the month in December and sometimes even in to the New Year. But we had all got together for a dinner. When I walked in I noticed that there were platters of homemade cookies, candies, etc sitting out. My dad walked up to me, picked up a tray with all kinds of goodies on it and handed it to me and said, “Funds were limited this year, but me and (insert stepmom’s name) made you some Christmas candy and cookies.” THAT was the best Christmas I have ever got. Right now, I could not tell you for sure what I got last year for Christmas, but I can still clearly see that platter of goodies in my head.

Far Away

“Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and cannot remain silent” ~ Victor Hugo

There is one thing that my friend brought into my life that I had never been able to express with anyone else before and that was music. I have always loved music. I love the stories that songs tell, the emotions that they bring or the memories that they unearth in your mind and in your heart.

Sometimes an old song will come on the radio and I am transported back in time to my first "parking" experience in high school when I really thought he was just a bad driver and truly was just looking for a place to "turn around." Or I can hear some old country, "Willie, Waylon and the boys", and I am transported back to the living room of the house I grew up in where my dad would play albums.

I had always dreamed of listening to and sharing music with someone. Like being able to use music to carry on a conversation between the two of you with out ever having to mutter a word. We could do this. There were many times when an email would consist of nothing but lyrics to a song.

When we would IM, he would download songs and send them to me. I would put my headphones on and he would have me tell him when I was starting the song so that we could listen at the exact same time, together. I would close my eyes and listen to the music as I dreamed of him singing the words to me, dancing, holding me close, looking in my eyes. All the while tears forming in my eyes just because of the pure emotion I would feel at that exact moment in time.

One of the first songs we ever shared was "Far Away" by Nickelback. I bought the CD and fell in love with this group. I even went to their concert a couple of months ago. I called my friend during the concert so that I could feel him there with me and share it with him. That concert, that moment, is one I can still see in mind as clear as if I was there today. But that moment is a bittersweet memory now.

Music and My Heart

I answered the phone at work today and while the customer was talking, I could hear "Wonderful Tonight" by Eric Clapton playing in the background. I love that song. I have imagined making love while that song is playing. Someone once burned and sent me a CD with that song on it. I miss that someone.

The one I dream of...

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you....
The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

Some History

Joe, www.amalemind.blogspot.com , is not from the US. He recently commented, "Halloween, never understood what it's about. Saw the movies, but why is it there,, what is it about?" So...being the considerate person that I am, dug up some info for him. I have some more to post on this subject, but I didnt want to make it too long for your reading pleasure.

Now today's Halloween isn't the same as it was 2000 years ago. The history and origin of Halloween lie way back in centuries in the ancient Celtic New Year's festival, Samhain. So much so that the customs of today’s Halloween are also rooted in the ancient customs of the Celts during Samhain, which was said to mark the end of Summer. Samhain, the Celtic New Year was celebrated every year on October 31—the day, which the Celts believed, was a day of the rise of the dead, when the deceased would wander the land to possess earthly souls. To keep these spirits at bay, the Celts dressed up as ghouls and monsters and put out all lights in their homes. With that, they ventured out as mischievous and wayward undoers willfully wantoning peace and property. The Celtic priests or Druids also built bonfires on this day and offered sacrifices. The idea behind all these was, of course, to scare away the spirits of the dead and avoid being “possessed” ! Now if you're brainy enough, it won't be hard for you to guess that the modern tradition of wearing costumes on Halloween traces back to this ancient Celtic practice!

The sinister attitudes of the Celts on Samhain toned down over the ages to give way to the less menacing attributes of today’s Halloween. The playfulness and fun side of Halloween was first brought to America by the Irish immigrants around 1840. Like for instance, the popular tradition of trick-or-treating on Halloween came from the Irish. This had been 'gifted' to the United States by the Irish immigrants who fled their country during the potato famine. The Irish celebration of Halloween or the Hallow E'en (evening of the Hallow), as it's called in Ireland, means All Hallows Eve, or the night before the 'All Hallows'. All Hallows Day is on November 1, and is also known as All Saint’s Day (a day to honor all the Catholic saints). ‘Hallow’ is an Old English word, meaning ‘saint’. November 2 is the All Soul’s Day—a day which honors all Christians who no longer live and were not saints. And the period of October 31 to November 2 is known as the Hallow Tide. Now, on All Hallows Eve or Halloween, the Irish beggars went asking for food or money from the rich. If refused, they were threatened to be destroyed by the evil spirits. And, of course, nobody wants to take a chance on Halloween. So soul-cakes or currant buns and candy bags chockablock with goodies were kept ready for the Halloween Day.

Some even say that trick-or-treating sprang up in the Middle Ages and was called ‘souling’. On All Soul’s Day (November 2), Christians used to go begging from door to door for soul-cakes or the currant buns. In return, they prayed for the souls of the dead ancestors of the family who obliged. However, the term trick-or-treat gained popularity only as late as the late 1930s in the context of Halloween.

The very popular Jack O’ Lantern of today’s Halloween also has their origins in Ireland. As the legend goes, a notorious con-man named Jack once fooled Satan on climbing a tree and consequently trapped him by carving a cross in that tree trunk. He then extorted the Devil into agreeing never to tempt him again as a deal for getting him down. But, later when Jack died, not only were the doors of heaven closed to him because of his wrongdoings, Satan also denied him entry at hell due to the trickery Jack inflicted on him. However, Satan gave him a glowing ember or coal to light his way through earth. Jack put the glowing ember into a hollowed-out turnip and walked the land endlessly. This came to be known as the “Jack of the lantern” or Jack O' Lantern. Later, when this concept reached America, the turnip was replaced by pumpkins. Today, both on Samhain and Halloween, Jack O' Lanterns are placed on the front steps of houses to scare away the ghosts. Quite a blazing thrill, isn’t it ?

Well when Halloween is in, black cats will often cross your way or jump right before you from nowhere or give out a spine-chilling whine rending the silence of the night. Now Halloween may be a feline favorite, given the number of black cats you’ll spot during the Halloween days; but this association of black cats with the Halloween festival has its origin in the ancient Celtic beliefs. The Celts believed that the spirits of the dead shacked in animals (which were mostly black cats) during Samhain and Halloween. And therefore, people avoided meeting black cats on the way as it was believed to bring tough luck. Some even held the view that witches disguised as black cats and went about casting spells on Halloween night. However, black cats were convincingly considered faithful followers of witches at all times and have thus assumed an ominous role over the ages till date.

Halloween is an occasion to go wild and whacky, fun and freaky, to do crazy things, play pranks and get away with it. It’s an excuse to behave like a kid without having raised a brow ! Halloween is thus as much an adult’s favorite as it’s in rage with the kids. Nevertheless, there had been forces in history, and there still are, which try to abate the crazier and unrestrained aspects of Halloween. Not quite untrue that Halloween celebrations go over the top at times and fail to be in good taste and sense. Therefore, in some way, it calls forth the need to hold back the reins and keep it within limits. The fun and frenzy is acceptable as long as it stays within sensible bounds and does not cause hurt to anyone or anything.