What will I do?

Where am I?
Who am I?
How did I get here?

Wow.

Work has been a bitch this week. Lol @ "this week". What? All two days of it so far? Well a lot of the reason is it is the end of the month and in my line of work, that is the most hectic time. Everybody wants it done by the "end of the month", often forgetting that I am only person.

On top of that, my computer at home laid down and died this weekend. Well I was lucky in the fact that one of my parents had just purchased a new computer and offered me their old one. Great computer. Has things that I didnt have on my old one...fax, scanner, CD burner. I was SO excited! Well I should have known if there was something that could go wrong, it would. Afterall, we are talking about ME! The damn thing wont work with DSL. I dont know enough about computers to know anymore than that. I know where to turn it on. Hubby and his friend have been working on it. Who knows. I am about to give up and curl in to the fetal position and start crying. I HAVE to have a computer! I am freaking out.

Then hubby and I get in to an argument today, so I am sure it will be a cold day in hell before he fixes "my" computer now. Maybe Santa Claus will bring me a new one! HA! Well I get a bonus in January, I was going to use that buy new furniture, but it looks like a new computer will be in order first. But what will I do in the meantime?!?! How will I live when I have to take a week's vacation and I dont have a computer! OMG! I havent even thought of that til just now!

Flying

The higher you fly, the harder you crash when you hit the ground.

A little birdie told me..

that today is Just Why's birthday!!!
So everyone go to and wish him a
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

It might be a day late due to the time difference.
Sorry JW! Hope you had a great day!

My Grandmother

Talking about my grandmother's china in my previous post made me want to write about her.

She is my paternal grandmother, my dad's mother. My dad is their only child. They had married later in life and werent sure they could even have a child. My grandfather was crazy about my garndmother. He always talked about how she was the prettiest girl he had ever seen. She would always hit him on the arm and tell him to "hush". He was devestated when she had to be put in a nursing home. She had dementia. He went to the nursing home every single day to sit with her.

My daughter was their first great grandchild. My grandfather knew, but I knew my grandmother had no idea. She couldnt speak and had no way to communicate. I dont even know if she knew who we were when we went to see her. She didnt seem to.

My grandparents lived three hours away. Being that my dad was an only child, he had quit his job and was traveling back and forth taking care of my grandmother and the ever present failing health of my grandfather. When my dad called me one Thursday in April of 1995 to tell me that he was going to see my grandmother the next day, somethig made me want to go. I told my boss that I would need the next day off. He wasnt too happy since it was so spur of the moment. Begrudingly, he let me off.

The next day I packed up my daughter and traveled with my dad to the nursing home. We spent time with my grandmother that afternoon. We basically just pushing her around in her wheelchair and sat in her room playing with my daughter. Like I said, she couldnt speak or communiate, but she sure would babble and carry on with my daughter. It was like they had their own language.

As we got ready to leave late that afternoon, my grandmother reached up from her wheelchair and held on to my daughter's toes as I was standing there. I hugged her and told her I loved her. As my dad hugged her and said, "Bye mom, I love you." She held on to his hand, he looked at her and she was crying, there were tears on her cheeks.

Imagine my surprise when he called me less than 24 hours later and said, "Your grandmother just passed away."

Thanksgiving 2006

I survived! Thanksgiving came and went without incident! I started cooking as soon as I got home Wednesday night, around 6:30pm. I finally got in to bed around 2am. Hubby and daughter were asleep. Actually daughter stayed up longer than hubby and helped me. He passed out in the recliner around 9pm...thanks for all your help honey! I knew I was too tired to keep going when I dropped an egg in the middle of the kitchen floor. I was up again Thursday morning at 6:30am.

I unpacked my Grandmother's china and washed it. I got online and found it here. After seeing how much it costs now, I was kind of nervous about using it! My mom said that my grandmother was looking down from Heaven and smiling. I remember using these dishes at her house when we would go to visit. Using those dishes yesterday was special.

One of my husband's friends came over to eat with us. He is not married and had no where really to go for Thanksgiving, so we asked him over to eat with us. He is usually a pain in the ass and I dont like him around, but something about it being a holiday made me take pity on him.

There are a few pictures of the table before everyone started eating. For pre dinner appetizers we had a cheeseball and crab salad. For dinner we had of course turkey, dressing, sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes, gravy, rolls, cranberries, and a fruit salad. We started around 1pm and by 1:30pm it was all over but the dessert. And for dessert we had pecan and pumpkin pie.

Of course my daughter's eyes were bigger than her plate, so what else can you do with leftovers when there is a dog in the house? Please, no comments about how bad the food was if we are giving it to the dog! (And I know how bad it is to feed the dog from the table, we dont do it on a regular basis. CK? I know how much this makes your stomach turn since you dont approve of animals in the house! ~ lol) My mom said that my grandmother is rolling over in her grave knowing that a dog ate off her china!

Of course my favorite part of the day was taking a nap as soon as lunch was over!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Everyone please take time to think about the things that you are thankful for. Be good to each other.

Smiles and Good Thoughts

Seriously, dont you just love it when you are happy and you know that others are watching you because you just radiate with happiness? I have been smiling my ass off the past few days and today I look up and someone is looking at me, smiling. Smiling is contagious. I have met more people that I see on a daily basis in the past few days just because I smile at them.

I was talking to the security guard earlier. I offered him a donut. He said no, that his wife would kill him if she knew he had one. I told him she didnt have to know, I wasnt going to tell on him. He said, "yeah, but I know how you women are with your '6th sense'." So my question here is, do you women really feel that we have a 'sixth sense' about things? And if we do, why dont we listen to it more? Awwwwww the joys of the holidays and the family guilt and pressure from your family. You know I am only ONE person and I can only be at one place at one time! Just drug me now and let me sleep til January!

Sam? HELP! The holidays are already reeking havoc on my exercise! I havent been to the gym all week, plus the food that we have had brought to work already is crazy! In the US people start with the goodies from Thanksgiving thru Christmas! Monday: out to eat lunch to celebrate employees' birthdays. Tuesday: donuts from a customer, pizza party and birthday cake. Today: donuts from boss this time and a catered lunch from a business!

I have a doctor appointment today. Yep girls, that 'annual' thing. Geesh. I had a bad result over a year ago and had to go through some treatments. I am scared. Please pray, chant, sing, whatever you do, but send good thoughts my way and in the weeks to come til I get the results. Oh and on top of that, its a new doc. I feel like I am about to lose my breakfast. I hate being nervous!

Tonight I will be elbow deep in the kitchen getting Thanksgiving dinner ready. On the menu we have: turkey, dressing, mashed potatoes {real ones too! ;-) }, gravy, deviled eggs, corn, green bean casserole, sweet potato casserole, fruit salad, rolls and pumpkin pie for dessert! Oh and appetizers, a cheeseball and a crab dip to munch one while they wait for me to finish cooking. I have had my grandmother's china packed away ever since she died in 1994. I am getting it out of storage tonight and washing it. We are eating on it tomorrow.

Happy

I love smiling. I love laughing. It feels so good.

Beta?

My opinion, for what it is worth, I cannot comment on the sites that have swtiched to Beta. And now, seeing how much fun Joe is having with it, I dont think I want to switch. Plus Anne said when she went to switch, that she couldnt. She and I have the same template. I cant comment on Joe or OG's blog today, just to name two that are on Beta now. Sorry guys.

Broken In

VI...this is the song I was talking about in this post.

"Comfortable"
by John Mayer

I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.

Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl I'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives
She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty

Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say

She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

She's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.

A Cool Mom

This post made me think of something that my daughter told me a few weeks ago.

She had gone to a football game and some of her friends were all standing around listening to each other's iPods. The song, "Lips of Angel" by Hinder, came on. My daughter told her friend that I had seen them in concert when they had been in town a few weeks earlier. My daughter said her friend's jaw dropped open and she said, "Your MOM?" My daughter was like "yeah" and went on talking. She said her friend was still standing there and she said it again, "wait, your MOM went to the concert?" My daughter was like "yes, my mom!" My duaghter said her friend looked at her and said, "wow. your mom is cool!" Needless to say that made my day.

I wonder what they would think if they knew I had the song "Crazy Bitch" by Buckcherry on a cd too. (Thanks to CK for the CD and for keeping me "young" in music.)

Good to Great

This has been a great weekend. Actually, this has been a great week. It started out a little bumpy, but all in all, it turned out good. I hope this is just the beginning of great. I hope.

Its funny, as I sit here I can barely remember what happened a little over 24 hours ago! lol The only thing I can remember is last night. I got a late night, well early morning, phone call from a friend that I havent talked to in a long time. We spent over an hour talking. It was great. It was like old times.

Dont you just love clean laundry? The warmth, the smell...I wish it could last longer than it does. I hope everyone had a good weekend, I know I sure did.

Whats in a name?

HowManyOfMe.com

There are: 14 people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

• There are 71,992 people in the U.S. with my first name.
• Statistically the 643rd most popular first name.
• More than 99.9 percent of people with my first name are female.

• There are 56,994 people in the U.S. with my married last name.
• Statistically the 607th most popular last name. (tied with 36 other last names)

• There are 8,429 people in the U.S. with my whole maiden name.
• Statistically the 4296th most popular last name. (tied with 26 other last names)
• There are 2 people in the U.S. with my whole maiden name.

Now I wonder, am I one of the two considering that was my name before I got married or am I no longer one of those two. Wow. that would be cool to be one of the two in the whole US.

Old?

My daughter has a friend over spending the night, so I took them to rent movies. We rented "The Lakehouse", "Man of the House" and "John Tucker Must Die". We are watching the John Tucker movie.

There is a scene where the guy is singing, "I want you to want me, I need you to need me..." I was in the kitchen and I said, "Cheap Trick!" A few seconds later the guy on the movie said it too. I said, "Told ya! I know ya'll are impressed!" Then my sweet, loving daughter, who will go to bed without dinner, said, "Of course you know it, its an 'old' band." WTH?!?! OLD??? I get no respect. And I am just teasing about the no dinner thing! :-)

Cinderella

So here I sit on a Saturday night...sweeping. Yep, might as well change my name to Cinderella. lol Dang I hate sweeping when there is cat and dog hair everywhere! We have three cats, two go in and out, one stays in all the time and a dog that stays in tooand I have hardwood floors, so I gotta sweep. Anyone have any suggestions as to some new invention to sweep with besides a good old fashioned broom? Anyone have one of those Swifter thingys? Let me know if you do and what you think please.

Its really been an extremely quiet weekend. Daughter wasnt home last night. I cant even get a phone call while I am home alone, but I did get a few, sweet text messages from a friend. D cheered at a basketball game this morning, so I went and watched her and the game. Our poor little team lost by one point, again. They lost by a point last week too. After the game, D went with her friend and I went to a store to do a little shopping. I was home around 12:30 and thats where I have been all day. I did take a little nap and watched some college football. My team won today. So I think that means we play Florida now for the SEC (South Eastern Conference) Championship.

This week is a short work week. I think I am off this Friday, even though I havent asked for it. I havent taken a vacation all this year. I have about 145 hours of vacation time. I have to take a week off before the end of the year, company policy to take nine consecutive days off. I work with finances, so they think that if I am doing 'shady' that if would float to the top during this time off. Okay, twist my arm, I'll take a week off! lol D is out of school this week, I almost took this week off with her, but that is not really a vacation if she is at home and I have to follow her around cleaning up after her. Hubs was off last week. So I figure I want a week all to myself too. Plus I might can take a little day trip somewhere or do some Christmas shopping!

Why is this a short work week you ask? Because Thursday is Thanksgiving. Friday is the beginning of all hell breaking loose in the stores and malls. After Friday, there will no more running to the stores for something quick. Ugh! I think I have some idea as to what to get D for Christmas. Tweens are hard to buy for, especially considering her BD was two weeks ago and we got her an iPod Nano then. I am sure she will have some ideas though!

Me? What do I want for Christmas? I'll let ya know later.

Thank you

Today is/was much better. I was so tired when I got home I ate dinner and crashed on the couch. At one point I fell asleep. I woke up scared, dazed, not knowing where I was, what day it was, whether or not it was night or day. I must have just passed out the second my head hit the pillow. Too bad it was only 7:30pm. lol Yesterday was such a rainy, gloomy day day. Thank goodness the sun is out and shining today.

I truly appreciate all of your comments. I have talked to my husband before about how I feel. I have made suggestions about things he could do. He is just not an affectionate person and I am. We went to counseling about 12 years ago. A few years after that I wanted to go again, when he asked for a divorce, and he said no. He said he was not going to have someone else tell him how to feel. I think that had a lot to do with the fact he was hiding something. I think my husband had an affair. He never admitted to it, but 2+2 =4. I wish you men would give us women more credit. lol So that in a nutshell is a little about my hubs and my marriage.

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday! My daughter has a basketball game to cheer at Saturday morning, but it is just us girls again this weekend. Basketball is not my favorite sport, I really wish I wasnt going to spend the first thing Saturday morning being cooped up in a gym.

There arent that many American readers that come here, that I know of, I need to do one of those "comment if you are lurker" post like some of you did once. But anyway, for those of you that do celebrate Thanksgiving next week, what is the one thing, the one dish that is served at Thanksgiving that you just love and wait all year to have?

Comfortable

I loved you
Grey sweatpants
No makeup
So perfect

Our love was comfortable and so broken in

So Tired

I swear someday I am going to explode. I am going to blow smooth up and then it will to late. I can’t say a damn thing right to please my husband. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Apparently I don’t look right to him either or he would want me more right? I am so freaking worn out and frustrated I want to scream.

It is like he wants this wife that is just jolly, happy-go lucky all the time, but the second I open my mouth to say something negative he explodes all over me. I cant be happy ALL THE DAMN TIME! Especially if he doesn’t give me anything to be happy about!

I have so much to say and I can’t say it all. I don’t want to lay it all out here for ya'll to judge. I know that not every thing is his fault. I have my faults too. No one is perfect. But God, for once, just once, could he say something positive about me? About something I do. I feel like such a second-class citizen, begging. Begging for attention. Begging to be loved. Begging for respect. Basically just begging to be noticed.

When we first met he doted on me. I was the center of everything. He couldn’t do a thing with out. We moved to new towns for his job where it was just the two of us. We packed and unpacked entire moving trucks by ourselves. We were a team. We were each other's best friends and we were proud of that. We bragged about how all we needed was each other.

That all seemed to change when the second I had our daughter. All of his attention and focus went from me to her and then to him. I feel as if I was just there to cook, clean and keep his child for him until he got home. Even my mom noticed it. She is the one that pointed it out to me. Even now, I don’t get the same greeting when he comes home from work as our daughter does, or for that fact, the dog. He has more enthusiasm for the dog than he does for me.

I am looking forward to him being gone again this weekend. I swear I don’t know where to start in trying to explain all of this. So much of it is built up in me. Ask me questions, I will do my best to try and tell you answers. I am scared that this is the way all marriages end up after almost 20 years. Do married couples just begin to tolerate each other and live around each other? I hate this feeling. I want to be held. I want to be loved. I want someone's eyes to light up when they see me. I want to hear the smile in someone's voice when they hear me on the phone. Sometimes maybe I think I want too much. It cant be like that all the time.

A fine line

"The hardest part about being friends,
is loving you so much."


"Truly great friends are hard to find,
difficult to leave and impossible to forget."

Confirmation

I have gotten more compliments on this.

A guy that used to work here just came in.
I hugged him.
He said, "Damn! You smell great! What do you have on!?!"

I just love being a woman!

He is young, cute and used to be an exotic dancer.
I wonder if I could get him to dance for me? ;-)

6 Random Things

I considered myself "tagged" after reading Manslut's post where I am to list 6 random facts about myself. Sitting here thinking, I am not sure I can list six, but here goes...

1. I was born premature. I almost died. They told my mom and dad I would not live through the night, but if did, I would be blind and crippled. I am none of those.

2. Someone anonymously paid half of my hospital bill from when I was born. My parents believe it was the doctors. Because I was so premature for that time, they wrote about me in a medical journal. I dont know the name or where to find it.

3. I have an indention on the top of right thigh, it is a muscle attached to the bone. They gave me a shot when I was born and the needle pushed the muscle down. Growing up, coaches and gym instructors would often ask my mom if I had broken that leg. They said I treated that leg like it had been broken.

4. I have never broken a bone in my body. I have broken my brother's finger and my mom's finger.

5. I didnt know I had an older sister until I was 24 years old. She is 4 years than me.

6. I went to college to be a high school English teacher.

Cant Believe It

Wow. Can you believe that I have actually been too busy at work to post? I know, me either. But I have been! Been busy emailing. lol

But despite that, I have been a pretty good mood, contrary to my last post. This week has been a good one so far. In fact I was in such a good mood this morning at work , someone asked me if I had 'drank' my breakfast! lol noooooo...not yet at least, but I may try it soon.

Actually, I used to add Irish Cream to my coffee every day. Then someone told me it was alcohol. I never really thought about it or the fact that I had to go to the liquor store to buy it. I mean "duh Kris!", but there surely isnt that much alcohol in it, is there? But come to think of it, my days were much happier when I drank it in the mornings. lol

Note to self: go to liquor store after work and purchase Irish Cream

Guys and Sports

Ok, so I am not an “ordinary” girl. I like football!

I remember being in Junior High PE class. My teacher was one of the boys’ football coaches. One day he said, “Okay, today I am going to teach you girls how to play football.” We learned the positions, offense, defense, 1st and ten, 2nd, 3rd and whatever. I know what a punt is and why they do it. Anyway, I know I enough to enjoy the game. I love it! So put me outside in the football stands and I am a happy camper.

My second eye opening experience with men and sports was in college. I decided for one of my PE electives to take golf. Once again, I learned all the terminology, par, birdie, eagle, mulligan, hole in one. (noooo, its not what you are thinking either! dirty minds!) For class we had to drive out to the driving range, sign in, hit a bucket of balls and we were free to go. Amazing what kind of college education your parents' money can buy! I never actually got to ever play a round of golf and I still haven’t. But I love to watch a golf tournament tv. My daughter took golf lessons a few summers ago. She came in second in the tournament they had for her age group. There were four girls. Did you know that more girls’ golf scholarships go unclaimed than any other???

Anyway, this is a great way to meet guys too! ;-)

Happy Sunday

Am I the only one that makes comments on other blogs and then I cant remember who's blog it was???

And by the way, I hate blogger. I had a good, indepth post written yesterday and blogger ate the damn thing.

Oh and can anyone tell me where all the freakin socks go in the washing machine??? I have a pile of one socks without a match.

I gotta go work out...

Dang I am tired and not feeling. But I keep repeating to myself,

"I gotta go work out, I gotta go work out, I gotta go work out, I gotta go work out,I gotta go work out,I gotta go work out..."

Hey JW, look...that was all copy and pasted. lol :-p

I didn’t go work out last night. Now wait a minute before you all start harassing me and listen to why. I packed my gym bag yesterday morning. I didn’t have any yoga pants clean, they were in the dryer, and so I was supposed to 'remind' myself to grab a pair out of the dryer. I get to work and halfway through the day I remembered I forgot to get a pair. I didn’t think it was in my best interest to go work out in dress pants or with out pants at all!

I instead stayed and worked a little late. Then I went home and did my normal little wife/mother duties. I picked up things that had been left lying around and distributed them to their proper location or rightful owner within the house. That is the one thing I am having the hardest time with when it comes to my daughter, getting her to return things to where she found them. Not on the general area, but putting things back exactly where she got it. You know every thing has a place and there is a place for every thing. lol I also fed the pets. They are not going to let me forget to feed them. I love how they can tell time. Like even on the weekends, they know when 5:30 rolls around. It is funny when there is daylight savings though, they get really thrown off schedule then. lol

After they ate, then I started making the family dinner. We had spaghetti and garlic bread. The best part was the salad!!! I love salad! I could eat only a salad every day for at least one meal. In fact, I think that is what I will make me for dinner tonight.

Daughter is going with a friend to a football game, our high school made it to the district playoffs. Hubs is going to the deer woods tonight (thank God!) and wont be home until Monday! I think we need this time away from each other. I hope he gets a deer. I like cooking and eating deer meat. There is no fat. I love having a freezer stocked. My daughter's favorite meal is deer meat fajitas. lol I am making myself hungry!

At this time it looks like I might not be going out tomorrow night. I can’t find someone for my daughter to spend the night with. I hate calling someone out of the blue and asking to pawn my child off on them. The couple that usually asks us to watch their daughter when they go out is out of town this weekend, so there went that idea. Maybe that is just a sign I need to stay home with my kid and fulfill my obligation to get up Sunday and go to church and keep the nursery like I agreed to do when I signed up for it.

Ok, time to go and change so I can go to the gym! :-)

Bitchy Girls & Great Guys

This is something I have noticed that all my life, but why does it seem like the "bitchier" the girl, the more devoted her boyfriend or husband is? Seriously! Seems like all the 'good' guys are all following around these women that treat and talk to them like they are crap. Can anyone enlighten me on this?

Hello?

Where is everyone?
Hardly any new posts.
Hardly any new comments.
I can tell this is going to be a long weekend, if I make it through Friday first.

Hey, I have a question. Last night I was getting in to bed and I looked at what I had on and I wanted to know, what do you girls wear to bed? Guys, what do your wives/girlfriends wear to bed? What do you wish they wore to bed?

Separation

Now this is a separation.

Ouch!

Hide and seek.

Need to pee?

Guys? Would you use this?

Hello Bill

I thought this was funny!

Being Good

You really dont realize what wonderful parents you have until you become one yourself. You mother never seemed so smart until the day you turn to her for parenting advice. I must say that my mom did a good job of raising me. Or at least I think she did. Granted my parents were married through all of my high school years, but it was my mom that did a majority of my raising.

As I face the teenage years with a daughter of my own I try to look back and remember how my mom was with me. What did she do that made me want to be so good? I hope I can do as good a job as my mom did.

I still email with my "first love". He is married and has two kids. We have been in touch for many, many years. This is part of an email he sent me the other day: "You better behave going out with the girls with no hubby at home. How long have I known you now? 26 years or so? I know that you are too much of a goodie-goodie to get in trouble. :) "

And its not 26 years, it is only 23. I met him the summer before I turned 14. He was a lifeguard at the local pool. I went to the pool every day. I had a purple bikini. He worn orange swimming trunks that velcroed in the front. Oh yeah, velcro, gotta love the 80's! lol We dated until I was in the 11th grade and he was a freshman in college.

Suggestion Box

Tobiwan said...
"It's time to get a babysitter and enjoy a nice evening with your friends. Tell us what you're gonna wear please and thank you."

Tobi I loved this, the "please and thank you" is so cute! I just love a man with manners! But, my question is to you, the other men and the women who are reading this and who go out far more than me, what SHOULD I wear?

I have always been under the impression that is it best to display 'everything' you have, but to always just give a hint. True or not? Jeans? Skirt? Boots? Heels?

Bitch, bitch, bitch

One of my pet peeves is when your spouse takes your car somewhere, uses about 98% of the tank and then decides to bring it home and leave is for you to drive. Excuse me? Do you know where the gas station is?

And whats the deal with gas going up again? Dont tell me it has to do with the freakin elections too! A few days ago is was down to $1.99, now this morning it is $2.06.

My lower back hurts. I must have done something wrong when I was working out last night. Crap.

And I have a headache. No, its not a hangover. I didnt drink anything. I just went to bed.

Ya know, used to my husband would lock all the doors and make sure we were all 'secure' for the night. Now he just crawls in bed leaving me to turn off all the lights and lock the doors. He used to stay up til midnight - 1am watching tv, now he is in bed by 8/8:30. Its like he and I have switched roles.

Oh and my mouth hurts where I tried to run my toothbrush thru my gums yesterday morning. lol damn...I am being whiney this morning.

It IS a beautiful day though. But it is not cool enough. It is supposed to be almost 80 degrees here today! We have the windows open at the house. The leaves were falling so hard and fast in the wind this morning, it sounded like it was raining.

Sleep?

Ya know, about a year ago I wouldnt have had a problem at all with going to bed at 8:30/9PM and sleeping all night. Now I am lucky if I can go to bed at 10 or 11PM and stay asleep all night.

Working out doesnt seem to have helped. Ok, ok, so what this is only my third day back in the gym, but still I already feel better. Tonight I walked in and the girl at the front said, "Wow, this is three days in a row!" I used to go every day about a year ago and in to the spring. I loved it. Then we (the family) all started riding bicycles.

The town we live in has a beautiful bike trail along a river. We all liked biking because we could do it as family. We would often ride 16 - 18 miles a night after work. I loved it.

Not only was it good exercise, but riding along the river and through the wilderness, I got to see the wildlife. I am such an an animal lover. We saw a lot of animals.

Plus the trail leads right in to downtown. So we would often park our bikes and sit along the river, watching the people. One night there was a concert going on. We stopped a watched from the bridge that went over the river as the concert went on below us on the banks of the river.

When hubby got a new job, his hours became longer and therefore, our bike riding got cut. I miss it. A lot. So that is how I got off track of going to the gym and now I must get in the habit of going again and not giving myself an option not to go.

Plus I want to stay in shape and look my best, you never know when you might meet someone for the first time and you only get once to make a first impression.

Just not a good day today. Went from great to shitty in 0.2 seconds. Hasnt come back up since, so its time to hunt down some liquor to kill the tears and put me to sleep! Good night everyone.

Lost?

Hey. I am kinda lost here. Do you know what kind of blogs I used to read before I actually started my own?

Cat blogs and Infertility blogs.

Of course I read the cat ones because I have cats and I love cats. I got caught up in the infertility ones somehow. Dont know how.

But my point here is, we all seem to congregate around the blogs that we share a common interest with. So I ask myself, what am I doing here? I dont have interesting stories to tell. Past or present. I wish I did.

Sometimes I just feel I dont belong in this "group" of blogs I read.

And then in my November 1st post "Working Late", Joe responded with this comment: "So you dont ever feel like just saying wtf and being really really bad?Bad in a wicked wicked way?"

Of course I do! And I am. Or at least I thought I was. Is there something I have to do to prove myself? I am still trying to figure out why he made that comment. Just because I dont blog about it, doesnt mean I dont feel it.

Still curious as to why you asked that Joe. Can you elaborate please.

Don't

Dont ya hate it when you are brushing your teeth and you jab your toothbrush into your gums? My dentist tells me I brush my teeth too hard anyway. I really like my dentist. He is so damn cute and so is his brother. Either way its a win-win situation when I go to the dentist. Now, if one of them was just an Obgyn, Id be happy! :-)

Dont ya hate it when your hair looks great? I only say this because that means tomorrow it will look like shit. I am prepared for it. I might as well go ahead and make the appointment to get it trimmed now.

Dont ya hate it when you are driving and your foot starts itching? Mind did that this morning. I had on boots that zipped, plus I drive a 5 speed, thus needing both of my feet. Finally, I managed to get the boot off. I scratched my foot and kept driving, with one shoe on and one shoe off!

This past weekend was my daughter's bd. It is so weird how fast time flies. I can still remember almost every detail surrounding her birth. I worked until the day she born. I remember where I went the night before she was born. I can remember what I made for dinner. I remember what the weather was like. I can remember the drive on the way to the hospital.

Hey Woodrow you'll appreciate this... I had my daughter around 3:30pm. Right after the delivery, my doc told me he was sorry that he had to hurry up and leave. His vacation had started at noon and he had agroup of guys waiting at his house to leave to go on a pheasant hunting trip! He stayed just so he could deliver my baby.

Shock!

Say it aint so! Britney files for divorce! Now if there was ever a couple that I thought would be married forever, it would be them! haha Whatever! What was she thinking?

Here is a list I found of 10 Things Guys Find Romantic. So guys, read it, tell us if you agree or disagree or make a list of your own. Wow. I am really curious to hear this. Personally I love #4.

EDITED: 11/8 12:25PM
Hey girls...tell me some romantic things that you have done for your guy.

Truth Hurts

Location: Company breakroom

Me: I'll be glad when all these damn cookies are gone.
He: They will be if you keep eating them.
Me: Shut up!

(Sorry Sam! I had a cookie, or two!)

One

I dont want to be one, I just want to be the one.

Too much fun

Deer season starts this weekend. Hubby is out of town. I just got an email from a group of friends here at work, they are all planning on going out Saturday night for one of the girl's birthday. Wow, the movie this past weekend and going out Saturday night this coming weekend, I better slow down, I might start having too much fun! lol They said there was a big dance floor. I dont normally dance, but I might just have to say "wtf" and go for it. Guess I better start trying to find a babysitter or better yet, a friend for her to spend the night with, then it wont matter what time I get home. Crap! I just remembered I am supposed to keep the nursery Sunday at church too. lol I may have to cancel on that this time.

My Laugh

I was just told I sound like Betty Rubble from The Flintstones movie. I am not sure how to take that. To make matters worse, Rosie O'Donnell played that character and I cant stand her! The thing is, this is the second time she has told me this!

At the Movies

I went to the movies this weekend. We saw The Departed. Personally I didnt think there was near enough blood and brains being blown out of the back of people's heads and fuck was just not said enough! (JUST KIDDING) The actors was great and it was suspenseful, but it was long, two and a half hours. And I must say that I am not a big Leonardo DiCaprio fan. But I have to say that he looked DAMN GOOD in this movie!

Yummy!

Hi, my name is Kris and I am a BB&W addict.

First, I got this one.
Then I went back for this one.
Yesterday I got this one and this one.

Monday

Rollercoaster.

Dr Phil quiz

"Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who’s extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken."

Working Late

I havent felt like posting today or yesterday. I dont have anything to say. Seems that someone or something has stolen my inspiration and creativity. I hope they come back soon.

Its past 5:30pm and I am still at work. This is unusual for me. Other employees keep passing by my office and saying things like, "Do you know what time it is?" or "What are YOU still doing here?" HAHA Smartasses. You arent funny. I have to stay late to make up some time. I have to stop taking such long lunch hour(s), literally. I cant help it. One hour is just not enough time to do all the things that I want to do.

This time change had me really screwed up earlier in the week. I was going to bed at 8:30pm and waking up at 1:30am. Not that that is usually the time I get up, but for some reason I could not go back to sleep. I hate that. Then of course about the time I do get settled back down, it is time to wake up. Well last night I didnt have that problem. I slept through the whole night. I pray I do again tonight.

Last night was Halloween. My daughter went out with some friends to one of the friend's neighborhoods. The friend's mom took them. I figure this will be the last year that my daughter "trick or treats". She was Raggedy Ann this year. Seems like yesterday when I was drawing a black nose and whiskers on her so she could be a kitty cat. She was a Dallas Cowboy cheerleader one year. And NO, I am not a Cowboy akd Crybaby fan, but that was all we could find.

I stayed at home last night and handed out candy. I was very disappointed in the costumes. Well maybe costumes is not the right word, maybe it would be better described as the "lack" of costumes. There were kids that werent even dressed up! Joie, I will take pictures tomorrow of my "Halloween rubbish bags" and post them for you. I know you wont be able to contain your excitement!

Look at what Adam gave out to his Trick or Treaters. lol

Edited: Still at work @ 6:30. I just hung up the phone. ;-) I said something and one of the guys I work with said, "Kris?!? Are you still here?!?!" I laughed and told him no, that it was just a figment of his imagination. He laughed and said, "Awww, sarcasm huh?" I laughed and said "From ME?" HA! Off to the grocery store to pick up a few things and then home to eat and watch "Dancing With the Stars". Shamefully I admit that I watch that. lol

OG, I added the World Clock to the sidebar.

Green

"Yet he was jealous, though he did not show it,
For jealousy dislikes the world to know it"

~ Lord Byron