I have such a problem with myself. I build things up in my mind how I think they 'should' go and then when they dont, I get pissed and I am hurt. Why do I set myself up like that? Expect nothing. That should be my new motto.
Why cant I be like other people and turn my feelings off? Why do I have to feel and care so damn much? People tell me that is one of things they love about me, that I have such a big heart. But you know what a big heart gets you? No, not more love, just more heartache.
What is that thing in that damn movie with Arnold S....crap, I cant think of the name! Anyway, the machines...they dont have feelings. A droid? I dont even know if I am in the same freakin movie. I am not a movie buff. Anyway, that is what I wish I was, a droid. No feelings, no emotions, most importantly , no heartache.
But you know what? The only way someone can break your heart is if you let them. I have no one to blame but myself.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Expect Nothing
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Awwww!! Kris honey!! Wish I could give you a hug xxx
Awwww how sweet! Thank you! I love hugs! I am good, really, just me talking to myself, with everyone else reading, kind of like you do with DM. lol It is helping, it is just making me stronger.
((xx))
Thank you "me"!
I guess I could just say, "Expect nothing, then be surprised by everything"
And when your heart hurts its only cos you are alive...
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